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raw, unfiltered, lowquality, and cringe rant to get stuff off of my chest :D

kinda de-evolved into a blog.. kinda

BTW-- uh...... content warning? of... swearing.. and SOMETIMES being weird ๐Ÿ–’







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(holy cringe)



k so my house used to have a FIREPLACE. yes, like all soviet era houses had. and tbh it was really efficient. we burned all news papers, papers, school notebooks, stuff we didnt need, wood etc instead of just throwing it away. and it warmed the house up naturally and you wouldnt have to be reliant on anything else! its so effiient why arnt we doing this anymore

FOR ME PERSONALLY... we... renovated? is that the word? like reconstructed the place?? and now its just a regular ol... box... that gives off heat. and for the rest of the world uh... like seriously why not?? it makes you less vulnurable for natural gas and whatnot and just recyles stuff well! maybe its cause burning stuff produces more CO2 but...? does it?

ok quick look at the wikipedia article andddd.... ok theyre efficient buuut... bad for indoor air, and may cause health issues... and are bad for the environment also... eh ok fair enough i guess theyre just meant to look cool




i cant say sowwy like... at all, even ironically its.. impossible. because it de-evolves into sowwwwyy-ET UNION!!... AND. I. CANT. DO. ANYTHING. MY BRAIN JUST... ;-;

and soviet union i no like



i just had ice cream for dinner... huh i dont know how to feel about that--

SO I WANTED TO EAT... first i looked in the fridge ok do we have sulguni?... no. ok do we have cream cheese?...no. ok do we have peanut butter? ....n-- WAIT WE DO-- ok its expired... then i looked at the shelf. do we have buckwheat? ...yes but theres not enough for a meal-- do u have couscous?... no. do u have beans?... no. do u have millets... no. do u have spaghetti? yes but u literall ate it today-- ok FUCK-- then i looked at the bread situation... do u have a fresh piece of bread?... no. ok what about veggies? u have pickles and tomatos which will NOT satisfy u (and u also hate tomatos) ok do we have some fruit?... yes but theyre not fresh and hard!!! then i looked at leftover foods... is there any?... no... FUUUUUUU--

then, in a moment of desperation, i looked in the freezer and saw big box of family ice cream... i.. dont have any other choice!! and im hungry!!! and so i took a big cup, i put shitload of ice cream in it and ate it... AND YK WHAT?? I LIKED IT! IT WAS SWEET AND NICE AND-- oh now im already hungry... SO THIS IS WHY SWEETS FOR MEALS ARE BAD--




wow i replaced my font with monocraft and... damn its kinda good it ALMOST fits into the rest of the desktop but... HMMM... IT CAN BE IMPROVED ON... YES THIS IS IT, INSPIRATION. MAKE A PIXEL ART RICE LES GOOO--

in the next monthly rice

......ok nvm pixel art fonts are unreadable i also tried miracode font by the same creator buttttt... no... just... no ill stick with inter but i do have slight inspiration now...




...holy moly its so cold outside, like really, i seriously thought about wearing long sleeve clothes cause its so cold wth, this summer has already been unusual and now its even colder...

btw my parents told me that during the soviet times, georgia was COLDDD like REALLY COLD. and the winters were so extreme that they were jumping from 2nd floors into the snow thats how thick it was... but after georgia left soviet union the weather became normal

damn, guess garry kasparov kinda cooked with the analogy of "winter is coming"... wait... does that mean now thats it getting cold again... no... NONONONONONONO--

....huh, nvm its not as cold as i thought it was... i mean its clearly less than 17 outside but ok maybe its just that its morning rn and itll get hotter as the day progresses




ok remember that story i told? about killing like 3 crane flies and centipede just casually walking around and catching a huge moth in one night?? yea that moth was still in my phone box... like 2 days after. and TDAY ME AND MY SISTER FINALLY DECIDED, ok lets take it to the backyard and execute it... she suggested to just.. throw it in the water but then its gonna die slowly and painfully which is uncool

SO we released it from the box and... it... sticked to the wall... it refused to leave, no matter how much we shook it. then i was like ok lets get a stick, and got a broom instead, turned the broom upside down and used the thinner part to just widdle away. AND THEN IT MOVED YESSS... and went to a different corner... yay good job moth. but we kept poking at it until it came to the side, then we shook the box like crazy and then it got on the ground after which i stomped it... well now thats resolved... a lil anti climactic but hey




new picture! for the website!! its a lil off place but honestly? id rather have something off place rather than..some static cowsay thingy...

and also shoutout samsonadze unironically fun to watch if u speak georgian. and seriously the show looks GOOD. something an adult swim would air... shoutout xavier renegade angel... god i swear i watch wayyyyyyy too much youtube lik wtf is shoutout-- ok different thought alert *press eject button*




ok i know the dislike button on a comment in youtube does literally nothing, it doesnt even send data to youtube level of nothing, but i kinda grew into the habit of just disliking a comment whenever i dont like it. like it doesnt have to be a bad comment, like if they use perfect fucking capitalisation and punctiuation and grammar while making a joke on a fucking slop live video... yea ok even if joke funny DISLIKE cuz... like cmon have fun once in a while you dont have to try so hard when typing. this isnt c2 english exam buddy--




uh... hey its 1:15 rn and the apocalypse is finally over. my sister discovered a crane fly in her room, and i had to throw plushies at it until it fucking came down. then slap it with a history notebook

god, im not gonna lie my butt cheecks are clenched and my hands are shaking--

then we discovered another one IN MY ROOM. this time i quickly killed it with an english notebook

then i went to bed, watchiing innvader thinking im that guy, i fucking did it when i heard buzzing above me, at first i was like: eh its prob nothing... but the buzzing didnt stop so i was like ok hol up and shined my phone on it and... A BIG. FAT. BLACK. MOTH. almost the size of your fucking palm. killing it would probably leave a giant fucking bloodstain and so i took my phone's packaging box, which was sturdy and nice, and after some hesitation, SLAMMED IT ON IT, catching it inside. then my sister sacrified her beautiful sketch portrait rip cuz it was on a girthier paper, i scooped up the moth, and together we fucking taped it up, the moth was making banging noises the whole time. and bam, i left a note "แƒฉแƒ”แƒ› แƒ’แƒแƒ แƒ”แƒจแƒ” แƒแƒ  แƒ’แƒแƒฎแƒกแƒœแƒแƒ—, แƒจแƒ˜แƒ’แƒœแƒ˜แƒ— แƒญแƒ˜แƒแƒ" and left it in my parents wardrobe (extra safety)

then my sister was about to leave, thinking she helped me THEN WE SAW YET ANOTHER CRANE FLY ON MY DESK. she ran away, i was like HEY U TRAITOR-- then we turned on the light in the OTHER room, and killed it with my english notebook

holy fucking smokes i cant sleep now... ;w;

yup. i went downstairs, get some water, pee, i got up and my sister is in the hallway and im like yo wtf and shes like DUDE-- THERE WAS A CENTIPEDE THERE, IT CRAWLED OUT OF NOWHERE, THEN IT CRAWLED ON MY BED, THEN IT GOT BACK ON THE WALL AND WENT TO THE WINDOW.... huh i was like NAHHHHH BRO I CANT DEAL WITH THAAAAAT and so she was like what am i supposed to do now. and theres a couch, in my parents bedroom and i was like just go sleep there. i fetched jacket and blanket from her room and now shes there... welp, its 1:44 now... how the hell am i supposed to sleep??? guess ill stay awake till 2:00 :) AAAAAAAAAAAA




MY CURRENT SITUATION. is the good ol days!! like ken (from ken on yt) once said that yk, every day has to be the good ol days for ya... and now i think i understand what he meant! like this is perfect! i have my own lil hobbies, a website, i go out in the yard, swing in my big, fucking.. swing chair is that what its called? eat grandma's home grown veggies and food, pick up aluchas and qliavi from the trees, my sis bought some soy souce and i tried it on millets and couscous + some home grown veggies OOOOF call me gordon ramsay. sometimes we visit our OTHER grandma (like from mothers side) who still has windows 7 on their computer and solitaire and chess titan games, its summer but its breezy and windy and cool outside, reminds me the weather of my childhood... sis comes from uni sometimes like THIS. THIS. i will remember as the GOOD. OL. DAYS. FOR ME. i WISH EVERY DAY WOULD BE THE SAME AND NEVER CHANGE... but yeaaaaaaaa im a lil scared that... this... wont last, or it will but it WILL eventually change... nooooooooo

i heard deltarunes probably going to be a game about moving on?? and at first i was like yea lol its so fckin easy mate, susie'll handle it... but now... that i think about it... yea i... think i realise the message a lil better now. but also NOT!!! CUASE HOW WOULD ANYONE NOT WANT THIS??? everyady the same GOOD OL DAYS. like?????????????

but yk what??? WRITE DOWN EVERYTHING. WHAT MAKES THIS THE "GOOD OL DAYS" FOR ME?? AND even if things DO change.. probably in years or somethin how would i replicate that in the new life?? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm




ok so ermm someone just downloaded my game??? huh??? its a web game u cant download it??? am i missing something?? ok maybe u can download web games BUT THERES NO OFFICIAL BUTTON FOR IT, so HOW??? in theory it shouldnt be tracked right???

...ok nvm did some googling and apparently... yea it happens when u use the itch.io APP... all plays count as a download from the app, even browser ones. and u can download web games there for offline play OFFICIALLY... wowie i am honoured




i thought about suing ai ads for false advertising. like they dont show u their product, instead some vague ai sh*t instead. SO I COULD HAVE A CASE THERE

asssssss a note not really lol suing is... complicated ;w; this is just my lil fantasy

but then i realised... wait... how would i actually prove its ai generated tho?? CRAPPPP like i personally can just tell if something is ai generated from just feeling, like i think i have a pretty good instincts on what is ai and what is not. BUUUUUUUT u cant just go by intuition in court like, u have to show the specifics! THE EVIDENCEEEE. HOW WOULD I EXPLAIN IF AN IMAGE IS AI??? FUQQQQQQ

AND THIS ANGERS ME EVEN MORE LIKE FUCK YOU AI START FUCKING LABELLING YOUR SHIT JESUS FUCKING CHRIST ITS NOT THAT FUCKING HARD




good news and bad news!

good news is that i appeared in special sauce!! while i was browsing neocities :DD... i dunno if that means anything BUT HEYYYYY

as for the bad news... .........dude.... i just found someone else with the same design... nenrikido??... unfairrr i thought i was the first one to think of thissssss... welp, guess ill have to RETHINK THIS ENTIRE WEBSITE (ok maybe not ENTIRE) cuz i wanna stand out!!.. im already kinda standing out BUTBUTBUT im the kinda guy who wants to be different TO EVERYONE in EVERYWAY. SOOOOOOOOOO hmmm ideas... ideas... ill just browse unix porn again or change the colours again (0000FF to FF0000? btw yes i understand hex colour logic ;w;)

...OK THIS IS IT. i went back to my roots, the original #0000aa colour, and also added some undertones kinda like this. i kinda do want to expand on this a lil more but hmmmm ok maybe i will ill keep fiddling around ok nvm i tried outlining the ENTIRE thing but failed... or i wouldve had to add like 10000 box shadows so eh not worth it

btw this is not an attack on anyone this is just... my shizophrenia ;w;



right also yayy gmtk game jam! my game engine (construct 2) deosnt work on linux :) and i dont know how to use any other game engines...! ive been learning godot with bracheys but yeaaaa im still a massive beginner tho soooo... i guess i wont participate this time ;w;




i swear its so hot outside... and by outside i mean OUTSIDE. like inside the home its chilly and nice but going outside MELTS ME. and thats all according to plan! i dunno if... everyones been doing this and... i sound like an idiot explaining something that everyone knows BUUUUT-- keep the windows and doors EVERYTHING during morning and day SHUT. but then open literally EVERYTHING during night... then the house is like a fridge the next day. NATURAL COOLING... AGAINNN i dunno if this is common knowledge and literally everyone does this but STILLLLL




yea so uh i wanted to make a maps page in gallery but erm... uh... yea it... got too political. which i DONT want this website to be (atleast THAT much)

and i cant just share 2 non political maps i have... yes i only have 2 non political maps ;w;

SOOO yea... and for full transparency it was about comparing russias and israels maximalist goals to the ones of ukraine and palestine to show just how extremely braindead the peace deals ppl have been recently proposing are... and i dont want this website to become "PROFESSIONAL" POLITICAL ANALISYS... only professional* (alternate) HISTORICAL analysis in the essays page :3...



YES 3 FRIGGIN ENTRIES IN 1 DAY I HAVE NOTHING BETTER TO DO

so when the internet was down i enabled ublock origin ad blocking again cuz i didnt want to waste the limited amount of data i had on loading friggin ads... but now internet is back! and.. i... dont think i can go back to having ads anymore. like i have ads to support creators but... like... to give an analogy: how am i supposed to go back to normal life after experiencing drugs like i also wrote some cosmetic filtering on youtube with ublock and its so clean now just my feed, subscriptions, DONE. no friggin shorts and 1000 useless categories on my nose. and every video loads so much faster and youtube is now generally so much faster like... how am i supposed to turn off ublock now?? this is too good!! IM SORRYYYY




anyway heres a condom

...just kidding THIS. IS. glass cleaners. i wear glasses and my dad brought them for fun its like a tissue with cleaning chemicals and whatnot

theres some on my desk and every time someone passes by and sees this, they immediately start like eyeing it and being all like WHAT THE HELL IS THIS?? then they grab it, and examine it and oh... and move on

at first i was like why... is everyone acting like this then i looked at it some more and realised OHHHHHHHHHHHH...

does it even look like one??




SUKAA. IT. DID. NOT. WORK. nooooooo

yea the theme change button. it worked! like it was fun for a while, it worked, i was proud of the code and then... oh wait, shouldnt this apply to ALL pages???... and that's when i hit a dead end...

WAIT I JUST HAD A BRILLIANT IDEA-- what if, instead of variables being 1 2 3... store them as... strings! yeh GENIUS-- ok lemme re attempt--

ok nvm... i looked at the javascript and was like ok.. how do i implement this... but then i realised oh wait... when u click the button, it adds 1 to the variable and just keeps going and changes the theme according to the variable so like... if its a string... yea SEE??? it wont work! it wont cycle!! FUQQQ i give up, i. give. up... but hey maybe the true theme is the friends we made along the way (aka basic javascript)




OK i change some stuff around the website and... yeh, ITS DARK NOW. i think the yellow was really heavy on the eyes and this... this... is better! my eyes dont hurt anymore

ok the dark era is gone.. and so is the KONTRAST era... BUT THEY'LL BE BACK! ill add a toggle, or an option to have ALL THREE OF EM!! but not now cuz its 1:09... oh now its 1:10!!




yay internet outage in my town i love it!!! not even power outage just internet outage. its been 2 whole days. we have to buy like... internet?? is that how u say it like DATA mobile data or whatever its called

its prolly cause of the construction workers. theyre fucking everything up in the town like they dig and remove perfectly fine roads to build "better sewage" (which just caused even more problems) and then ok, fine, they rebuild the road, cool... BUT THEN THEY REMOVE IT AGAIN. NEWLY BUILT ROADS. REMOVEN. AGAIN. this time to "fix" sewage... haha die-- and now theyre fucking up the internet cables too probably




jesus fucking christ why am i getting some ragebait yt recommendations like "AI. IS ACTUALLY FUCING GOOD STOP FUCING COMPLAINING" "AMAZING DIGITAL CIRCUS SUCKS ARSE" "DELTARUNE SUCKS AND IS MEANINGLESS" LIKE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEEE. like i wouldnt mind these maybe theyre genuine reviews on stuff which i respect but the way its presented gets me the wrong way like... your review is so bad, that the only way you attract viewers is by making ragebait thumbnails and titles like go fuck yourself youre a fucking pest! like i recently watched how to anti ai better by dr fatima and its a really fucking good video. the title and thumbnail ("problem with anti ai movement") does challenge what i believe in, but its presented in a respectful way. BUT THIS?? THIS IS JUST STRAIGHT UP RAGE BAIT. like not "why i dont like deltarune" JUST STRAIGHT UP "FUCK DELTARUNEEEE" like DIEEEEEEEEE LEAVE ME ALONEEEEEEEEEE




yey i upgraded my essay on ai. arguing why it sucks and... not providing a solution... at all... was a bit silly sooooooo. i THINK (atleast) that i made a compelling analogy n solution (smash like! god please help me i watched too much youtube now i say smash like unironically every 10 seconds HELP--)




im a rightist... BECAUSE I WRITE WITH MY RIGHT HAND HAHA GET IT--

jk took some quizes and... yea social liberal that sounds... ok... i guess... yea im youung i change my leaning like every 10 seconds

anyway speaking of right wing and left wing my dad used to be a lefty. like he used to write with his left hand. but the soviets (tbf i heard this left handers oppression was a thing around the world so) forced him to write with this right hand, and so now he writes horrible with BOTH hands! nice!

im right handed but my grandpa and uncle from my mother's side are left handed... and so is my dad as i said... but my mother herself is RIGHT handed. so if i learned anything from my biology classes my father is "aa". my mother's dad is aa so even if my grandma is dominant "AA" that still would mean with 100% certainty that my mother is "Aa". and an offspring between aa (recessive) and Aa (semi dominant) will be 50% aa (so left handed) or 50% Aa (so right handed) and since im right handed that means im Aa. so i still have some lefty genes in me which is very cool... but somehow all of us siblings are right handed like... how????? did we all get the same side of the coinflip wtf

yea seriously now that i think about it.. if i learned sh*t from my MATH CLASSES, if each child between my father (aa) and mother (Aa) had a 50% chance of being left handed, or 50% chance of being right handed, and all 3 of us are right handed, that'd mean ok... so 50% in fraction is 1/2... 1/2 needs to be squared by 3 (cuz 3 offpsrings) and so that'd be 0.125. 0.125*100 is 12.5%. SO ALL THREE OF US BEING RIGHT HANDED WAS LITERALLY A 12 PERCENT CHANCE SCENARIO... boooooo unluck!! (or maybe its secretly luck...? eh) it'd be interesting if any of us were left handed. like i remember in my class, there used to be this blonde armenian kid who wrote with this left hand, and every teacher said the same sh*t of OH if he wrote with his RIGHT hand he'd write so much more beautifully!... im curious what kinda reactions ppl would have on me if i were left handed hmmmmmhmmmmm




everything i write and re-read suddenly feels cringe ;w; and i also somehow make so many typos/juststraightupmispelling/shovingforgottenthoughtsinthemiddleofsentencesandthenitlooksweird

damn that sentence going off charts is intentional btw, it looks goofy

alsoo erm... the about me needs a severe rewrite cause it sucks so bad ;w;

also i will no longer be makeing essays bout arguing and reason and whatnot i watched some debunking videos and... holy shit they're just throwing out big terms and logical fallacies and im sitting there like: ...huh? yea haha no i look like an idiot, only alt his from now on




ok now its time for me to rant about MY CHILDHOOD CARTOONSSS its gonna be a long one

ok so as a kid i watched a shit load of russian dubbed cartoons. and that's actually how i learned russian! by just watching sh*t as a kid. it feels like there were 3 eras: 1 where i watched the absolute baby sh*t (cocomelon equivelent but better and russian) 2 where i watched NORMAL russian stuff and 3 where i watched american shows that were dubbed russian

LIKE THE FIRST ONE is fixiki its like a show, about... i guess screws?? being able to talk and are alive and they secretly fix sh*t around the house and a boy finds out about it and talk and like, do scentific experiments and whatnot i remember my mother CONSTANTLY talking about it like oh its such a smart show oh it'll make y'all smart but like.. eh??? really?? i still remember the intro song tho its like "kto takie fixiki? taina taina taina"

and theres another show i remember is like the one with circle blue rabbit, and.. brown circle.. bear it was? i dunno i dont remember its name nor did i like it much tbh, i only remember it cause i FORCED myself to watch it because one time my sister said that "(cousin's name) used to watch this show" and that cousin? is a fucking genius and childhood me was like: oh ill watch this and ill get smarter! like... damn.. thats not how it works buddy

i also watched tri bagatirya as a kid. its like a movie trilogy?? i think about 3... knights? whatever they're big and buff and have wives... and there's like this king and his talking horse its actually really fucking great i love it to this day even tho i.. remember almost nothing from it. i remember that one scene where everyone gets drunk and get captured. and thruout this there's this one character (prob my favourite tbh, least buff, with the wife constantly yelling his name ALYOSHENKAAAAA) who lost his footwear and is like, i think arrived late??or did he also get captures by drinking... i dont remember lol but i do remember that the ship started sinking or something-- ok nvm my memory's really fuzzy on this one BUT I DO REMEMBER, that i loved this show and also i remember that one time when the most buff one was sitting on a horse, charging and yelling slava rassiye or something? and my dad heard this and started swearing and cursing like... lol tbh if i heard this tday id also do the sa--

OH RIGHT AND RECENTLY. my dad started talking about masha and medved. apparently its a fucked up show symbolically. like i liked it as a kid, but apparently the bear, (medved) represents russia, while the curious bratty ungrateful child (masha) represents like, georgia belarus ukraine kazakhstan armenia kyrgyzstan and tajikistan? and the world goes against the bear, but still remains humble... yea thats fucked up if its true. i like masha and medved tho but... this... is disappointing for a lack of a better word

and then at this era, i think i learned how to use the tv and started discovering other channels. i remember trying out nickelodeon but i only liked spongebob. THE TRUE GEMS. were in cartoon network. i remember banikula, like rabbit vampire, this dog character and cat and really hot girl who owned the rabbit. i always thought why did they have to make her so hot like ???? ahem and another one where there's like a racoon, from the dumps, pretends to be a cat, and becomes this rich lady's pet. i never hear ppl talk about these cartoons for some reason they're so underrated

but i also watched the more known cartoons like gumball... and... that's it. i remember the ads, CONSTANTLY showed adventure time, regular show, steven universe, uncle grandpa and i REALLY REALLY WANTED TO WATCH THEM. i thought they were really high quality but they werent aired on tv! at all! LIKE WHY?? STOP TEASING MEEEEE. and then there was teen titans go slop ew, like half the schedule, was teen titans go WHYYYYYYYYYY??????? pleasee... WHY? and that's why i hate teen titans go. like... it feels like they replaced those awesome shows! i... havent watched them tbh but... YEA I AHVENT WATCHED THEM AND ITS ALL TEEN TITANS GO FAULT AND THEM TALKING UP HALF THE SCHEDULE FUCK YOU TEEN TITANS GO--

OH NOW I REMEMBERED THIS CHANNEL. my parents still watch them "kino semya" (movie family) it showed like, family friendly shows, mostly disney ones. i remember this ralph? this video game character and this girl and this blue builder i remember it had a part 2. and also kung fu panda the first one was AWESOME I LOVE ITTT I LOVE KUNG FU PANDA SO MUCH. it was hilarious, nice and the second part was... not child friendly it made me cry out of sadness like actually, and made my want to cherish my mother for a hot second and then moving onto krasavica and chudovisha and--

OH NOW I REMEMBER SIMPSONS TOO. like it was on fox i think?? i dunno RUSSIAN SIMPSONS LETSS GOOO. i used to watch it at my granny's house too when they sent me there in summer. and they all said its not appropriate for me to watch it for.. some reason is simpsons really that mature? eh cant be. and for some reason they aired it like, messed up? like the seaons werent consistent like it was jumping all over the place like i remember me and my sister watching the part where berdly is that his name? the rich dude got shot and the episode just left on that cliff hanger and we scouted the entire fox channel to find the continuation to find what happens next AND WE DIDNT FIND IT. it wasnt there! why???? simpsons is prob the show i remember the clearest tbh for example theres this one episode where bart like accidentally showed its arse on the american flag and simpsons fled to france i think but the life there was too perfect and decided to come back

and then theres the final era. the era when i got a school laptop. and i watched shows on a piracy website called adjarabet. its a georgia piracy site with georgian dubbed shows but if you go deep into the seasons it starts getting dubbed in russian. i remember i watched some VERY mature stuff there like family guy, i catched up on simpsons, american guy too? attack on titan, naruto, boruto, other anime and movies and south park... OHHH BOYYY SOUTH PARK. yup, i watched south park as a primary schooler haha! i still remember it took me a year to realise everything i watched on south park like i remember i realised like... holy shit wait... was south park a kids show?? wait a second holy... hell... holy shi-- and i remember i often asked my dad what i watched meant like dad, what is lesbian? dad, what is yevrey (jew in russian) and he did explain it but i STILL DIDNT UNDERSTAND THE JOKESSS like why was cartman calling kyle jew?? and why was that a bad thing?? like i understand it now but... jeez... i remember one time i was watching it next to my dad and it was like, a tampon joke? like good ol kenny started having period or something i dont remember and the doctor when he was diagnosing the issue my dad heard it and audibly laughed and was like what the hell are you watching?? like omgggg i was such an oblivious child how the absolute fuck did i watch south park jesus christ-- so south park IS appropriate for kids! they wont understand anything anyways

anyway thats enough, theres a ton i missed probably but yea thats pretty much it. those were the glory days man watching gumball before going to school. one time i remember in 3-4th grade grandpa passed by and saw it like th scene where gumball's mum was like running from a giant i think? and he was like you shouldnt watch these kinda shows youre too old for them... haha thanks!

its kinda interesting like... why... do i not watch the tv anymore? like... what happened?? or why do i not watch cartoons anymore as much? i transitioned to youtube sure but... why dont i just... pick up the remote and watch the tv again?? damn...




i want to get 100% on sporcle world flags quiz but the closest i got is 99% AND ITS ALL. BECAUSE. OF. PACIFIC ISLANDS... and also the carribean with its lil island countries. and yk what? the best way to memorise countries, is to know something about them. ill now be thurouly researching:

saint kitts and nevis (โœ“)
trindad and tobago (โœ“)
vanuatu
saint vincent and grenadies
antigua and bermuda
nauru
samoa

ngl pacific is so underrated! more underrated than africa in my opinion

oh right forgor to mention many other island nations (jamaica, tuvalu, marshall islands etc) are not included since i already have some knowledge on them



......ngl i dont think im gonna make another MONTHLY RICE. cause i am severly uninspired. like i did try fiddling around but... failed... it... didnt look good.. I TRIED EVERYTHING. designed more window decorations but... eh... like i want to stand out but... like?? how??? i dont want to have a generic kde rice anyone can find on unixporn I WANT A GIGACHAD SELF MADE GTK CINNAMON RICE.

so instead ill show this rice again but slightly modified from last time ;w;




FUCK YOU YOUTUBE ADS, STOP SHOWING A 10 SEC UNNSKIPPABLE MORMON ADS. no, fuck whoever made this ad like, youre not spreading faith! youre just making people associate it with annoying ads (and they ARE annoying, who likes 10 SEC UNSKIPPABLE ADS IN THE MIDDLE OF THE VIDEO???) which in turn hurts the religion's reputation!! like EVERYONE LOSES!!?!! (except yt)




service: you cant continue without us collecting your personal data, we need it to give you personalised experiences

me: can i use the service WITHOUT "personalised experiences"?

service: ............................no. (cuz fuck you!)




K im tryna write more essays on stuff that i have lil to no idea on whats going on so i have to research MOOOOORES... its fun! also i do have A LOT of other essays but... i think they're either low quality (fantasy innacurate alt history) or too controversial (*guLP* i dont wanna give examples.. ok maybe i will *GAAAAAAASP* r-r-r-r-r---r-r-r--re-r---e---r-e---e-r--e--... i cant say it... heq)




i just saw bakuriani's water ad: "nuli shakari, nuli kaloria"-- "zero sugar, zero calories"... dude... THAT'S THE WHOLE POINT OF WATER???? WHAT THIS AD BLABBERING ABOUT DUDE-- DIET WATER IS REALLY A THING NOW?? what dystopia do we live in ;w;

ok tbf its flavoured water with strawberries or something but STILL?? ITS ONLY A FLAVOUR NOT AN ENTIRE JUICE




now that i think about it... WHAT THE FUC IS THE POINT OF PERSONAL HEALTH DATA BROKERS?? DOCTORS, manage your health, NOT FUCING PHARMACEUTICAL COMPANIES OR GOOGLE OR AI OR WHATNOT. my mom's a neurologist, and yk what that means? her whole thing is diagnosing whats wrong with ur brain, telling the appropriate action for it and recommending drugs. and she tells me she's not sponsored, she just tells what works for what (ok maybe my country has a smaller set of pharma imports so its more limited in drugs so theres not much of an insentive to advertise BUT STILl???) SO WHAT IS THE POINT OF ALL OF THIS????

yea its never bout ur health its always about MONEYYYYYY... unless i am overlooking something and i am sounding like a total idiot




...OKKKKK SO, AN OLD MAN CAME INTO OUR YARD. he's calling my dad's and uncle's name. i went out and the old man asked where my dad n uncle were i told him they werent home. then he asked me to call them, and so i brought the phone and called him and... but it wouldnt let me and the phone would just say "call forwarding active"... i thought it didnt call cause i guess i forgot to pay or something?? so instead i showed him dad's number, you call him i said, AND HE TOOK MY PHONE THINKING I CALLED HIM and i was like WAIT I HAVENT CALLED HIM YET-- and then my dad rings back. and when it was ringing he had the phone on his ear... and heard the ringtone

AND YK WHAT THE RINGTONE IS??? ME SINGING IN A VERY CRINGEY AND HIGH PITCH WAY LIKE PARARARARAM!!!!!!!!! FUUUUQQ and he HEARD IT. and so i snatched the phone, answered it, and then was like ok now you can talk to him and after he finished he asked help for lifting something into his car and so i did. after i finish THANKFULLY MY UNCLE CAME OVER AND HELPED TO FINISH THE JOB... whatever it was




recently, every time i get up from bed after lying there for so long, my vision blurs, i start feeling lightheaded and i barely manage to balance myself. this passes away in couple of seconds BUUUUUUUT-- WHAT THE FUCK IS THAT??? IS THAT WHAT DYING FEELS LIKE?? im getting used to it at this point BUT STILL???




my sister told me that her friend is a lil chubby and her knuckles arnt visible. i googled (duckduckgoed to be specific) "chubby hand", then "chubby fist"... and when i googled the second one... i saw the most heinous sh*t ever

i am now traumatised




ohhhhhhmyyyyyyfuckinnnnnnngooood i hate when kids start beginning their moms to buy them somethin expensive aaaaaaaaa in shows, books, in fckin, irl too, I HATE IT... because i also used to do it as a kid.. and those memories are pretty vivid too... AAAAUGHHHHHHHHHHHH OH NO CRINGEEEEEEEEEE--




i am begging to realise that i might not be an extrovert. LIKE i always thought of myself as a shy person who once opens up really enjoys hanging out and gets energy out of it... but... no... thats not the case at all... social interactions now TIRE ME THE HELL OUT. like EVEN FAMILY MEMBER CONVERSATIONS ARE SO TIRING. after it ends, i feel so fucking sleepy and tired. and recently, i even started feeling strain on my face from smiling, like i physically start struggling to smile and laugh the longer i socialise. LIKE I DONT HATE ANYONE, i dont HATE the convos and situations, i just... get extremely tired from it ;w;




ok now im beginning to become even more confused. LIKE im now seeing europe being superhot now and news n shit like, damn, its so hot in europe BUT HERE, its unusually chilly and rainy. like tday its 17 degrees!! tomorrow its gonna be 14-16 lol like we're literally outperforming SWEDEN. A NORDIC COUNTRY OF ALL THINGS IN WEATHER LMAO--




i forgor to tell this so the one time we went to kazbegi and came back everyone asking the same thing: how was the khinkali?? cause apparently, that place is FAMOUS with khinkalis.. but when we were there and asked locals for the khinkali, they said they didnt cook it there. WHAT?? dude, YOURE FAMOUS FOR THAT ONE DISH AND U DONT EVEN COOK IT?? like literally every single place in georgia atleast sells FROZEN khinkalis to be boiled at home, and THE COUNTRY FAMOUS REGION FOR KHINKALI, DIDNT HAVE IT AT ALL IT T-T.. but they DID have shawarmas for... some reason...




oh shit i forgot to.. space out the rant from the... introduction... and it looked so bad for so long... DAMIITTTT ok i think im beginning to... forget this website which is BAD i NEED TO ADD MORE FEATURES AOFJOADIJO so its exciting again and not just... me... ranting.. So yeh LETS DO IT AFTER UHHHHHHH

...i finish pokemon pokemon sapphire bug type only run. YES IN THE MEAN TIME MORE RANT *GAAAAASp* SHEDINJA, is my favorite pokemoN ITS CUTE, IT LOOKS AMAZING. AND I STILL HAVE THAT MEMORY WHEN MY SHEDINJA TOOK DOWN STONE'S MEGA METAGROSS CAUSE IT DIDNT HAVE ANY MOVE THAT ATTACKED IT LOL-- and overall its a really fun card to play after it has protect to scout opp's moves :D... also surskit and masqurain are very underrated..

yup thats bout it




oh my god i swear to god every time i slap a crane fly to kill it it just disappears! without a body!! LIKE when u kill literally ANY OTHER BUG, u see its dead body. BUT CRANE FLY JUST DISAPPEARS??? AND MAKES ME WORRIED DID I REALLY KILL IT??? like yesterday at night i took a broom and beat the sh*t out of it, but i couldnt find its body anywhere! i was SURE i slapped it and killed it but it was GONE! and i remember a year ago i also killd one with a BOOK, it was on the wall, i had a book, I SQUASHED IT, and when i checked IT WASNT THERE!! DID IT DIE??? AND IT HAPPENS WHEN OTHERS KILL IT TOO, llike my father, killed it with a shirt, and it just disappeared!! it happens VERY TIME-- iVE NEVER SEEN A DEAD CRANE FLY. WHY?? WHAT THE FU--




HOLLYYY SHIIIII I JUST FOUND OUT THAT THE ROAD TO MY GRANDMA, has A USAID SIGN!! talking about literring i gess?? GODDAMNN i thought usaid was only used for... like.. really poor countries but DAMN even my country recieved aid... its kinda wild like something so far reaching...got cancelled ;w; HAHA AMAINZGGGG-- anyway this is kinda an insult too. LIKE BRUH YOUT THINK WE'RE UNDERDEVELOPED AND POOR AND UR SENDING US AID??... ok we are BUTBAIUDHOADHOU-- sTIILLLLLL




i checked up on my dusty lil bycicle in garage tday and OH BOY THE MEMORIESSS FUQQ I STILL CANNOT GET THAT ONE INCIDENT OUT OF MY HEAD--

LIKE ONE TIME, i was cycling in the park, and sometimes the path in the park is like, really narrow so i was cycling thru those one time and i saw 3 boys coming my way. and i started like beeping, with my bike it had its like, beeper, i was spamming it like C'MON MOVE IM COMINN. when they didnt budge, i started tilting my head to show for them to move. and THEY STILL DIDNT BUDGE. and THEY WERE LOOKING AT ME THE WHOLE TIME TOO LIKE-- THEY WERE LOOKING AT ME, HEARING VERYTHING AND YET HTEY DIDNT GIVE A SHIT. LIKE MOVE YOU COWS!! and of course i didnt want to hit them so i had to turn around, but since the path was so narrow i collapsed and had to turn the bike around manually. and yk what they did? THEY OFFERED HELP. they were like "yo need help"????? FCK. YOU. DIE. LITERALLY KILL YOUR S-- like WHAT?? THE AUDACITY??? I DID NEED NEED HELP OF MOVING YOUR FATASSES OUT OF MY WAY SO WHY DIDNT YOU HELP ME WITH THAT IF YOU WANTED TO HELP SO MUCH?? oh MY GOD. like this is SLILKEOAIFJOAD HOW DO I EXPRESS THIS??? FUq THEM




ive been getting into music and GODAMNNN i think im already pretty good at it! as in MUSIC MAKING... in beepbox! ive used beepbox for my crappy games before but never really put much thought to it. i kinda just knew: chords, melody, some kind of support, drums DONE. NO THOUGHT BEHIND IT WHATSOEVER. just combine those 4 and FINISH. NOTHIN ELSE TwT BUT NOWWW i watched some melody makin tutorials and... oh damn, now this brought me to the next level. so you gotta base your melody ON THE CHORDS, like they have to be similar or something they have to be on the same page or... somethin... look im not very confident and im prolly pissing off some musicians here but im pretty proud of my creations now that's basically what i wanna say ;w;

but why have i "mastered" this NOW???? T-T... like i cant make games anymore sincne i moved to linux and my game engine of choice doesnt support it... SO WHATS THE POINTTT?? make music and rot??? FUQQQQ...

oh and this is BY FAR my most favorite creation

aside from that ive been learning some piano with a book, and i installed some piano app (vmpk from fdroid by pedro) on my phone, and literally compared it to my grandpa's piano keys and the size matched PERFECTLY. that means playing piano on my phone gives the same experience as the piano... ok its not absolutely the same but its still fine




only moths are a good flying bug. every other one sucks. crane flies are scary. regular flies are annoying pieces of shit. mosquitos.. need i explain myself?? dragon flies are TERRIFYING and butterflies are too fragile... and they're also terrifying time to time. and moths are cute, quiet, safe everything youd want from a bug

...fuck i just remembed ladybug is also a thing FUCKKKKKK i like ladybugs too k??

SPEAKING OF BUGS. my favorite WALKING bug is the firebug!! i have a LOT OF CHILDHOOD MEMORIES ABOUT IT

my big sister told me that the firebugs eat blood, so i became a lil hesitant about them. and i also told my lil sis that they eat blood. and now she always says that when she was little, i lied to her that those bugs eat blood WHEN I WAS THE ONE WHO GOT LIED TO IN THE FIRST PLACE!!!

i also very often saw firebugs just carrying each other. like they would just join, and walk around. and as a kid i always thought: AWWW one of them is hurt and the other one is carrying them!! but now as a teenager i look at it and go... are they mating??? and turns out YUPPPPP




theres a park RIGHT next to my school, like EXACTLY next to it. and near my house too and weird sh*t has been going on there. like one time a man got killed there, a week ago a man killed himself there, one time a kid almost died because he was walking on the fence badly and fell off and tday a man killed 2 other men for not loaning him money... like wtf is that place cursed or something

holy shit i forgot the mention IT GOT INTO THE NEWS?? WHAT?? damn this is... bad... pretty much only people losing lives get reported on tv for some reason and it makes my town look bad ;-; which is fair tbh but stilllll... and its kinda surreal like, a double murder, NEXT TO MY SCHOOL AND HOUSE, gettin on tv jeez louise

HOLLLLLLY SHIIIII YET ANOTHER UPDATE. so the double murder was actually kinda justified... atleast here. like the man killed the other 2 men because they were literally not giving him money. like the man was renting the land to them, but those 2 men just refued to pay or something. and then the man first tried to ask nicely for them to leave, when that failed he literally filed a lawsuit, WON. and all that did was made those 2 men take on more dept and then STILL stay on the land. and then the man had enough, law enforcement wasn't doin shit, so he called those 2 men to our park, bought his dad's pistol, and shot em both. he didnt want to shoot them in a way so they wouldnt die, or just beat em since one of the man's wife was a lawyer, so the man would just snitch, and her wife would arrest the f*ck out of the man (sorry if ur having hard time keeping track of the men) so he HAD to kill them. then apparently ANOTHER MAN, a worker, witnessed all of this, and tried to stop the killing but he just got punched in the eye by the gun and warned to leave and so he did... soooo yea quite the... interesting situation, everyone here is saying he was justified which... ok murder is not a good way to solve the issue. like it DID solve it, now those 2 men are TECHNICALLY out of his proprety BUUUUUT he also went to jail SOOOO its not a GOOD way to solve the issue if you know what i mean. but this was probably the best solution tbh, if he just threatened them or shot them non fatally they would just snitch and the victim's wife as i said was a lawyer so wouldve taken a quick work of that. killing them gave him atleast a POSSIBLITY of there not being enough evidence to convict him

ok this park rant turned into a murder investigation nevermindddddd




bad things should happen to people who thought it wouldve been a good idea if double tapping or arrow keys skip the video 10 seconds back/forward instead of 5 AND NOT EVEN GIVING AN OPTION TO CHANGE ITTTT




SCHOOL. IS. DONE. jk for me it ends on 15th of june and rn its 13 BUUUUUUT-- ill be skippin last days so at the end of the day.. yk... its over

I AM VERY. VERY. VERYYYYY EXCITED NOT FOR SUMMER HOLIDAYS (those are secendary lol)-- but THE LAPTOP!! my school has this... thing like if you finish high school with your yearly grade being 10/10, you get A FREE LENOVO LAPTOP. FREE!!! YES!! my sis already got it and ITS AWESOME!! and since i finished 7th, 8th and now 9th grade with perfect yearly 10/10s, I AM A CANDIDATE FOR IT! NOT EVEN A CANDIDATE IM GUARANTEED TO GET IT!!!!!! WHO HOOOOOOOO ALL IS LEFT IS TO SIT THRU THE LONGEST 3 MONTHS OF MY LIFE AND THEN RECIEVE A LAPTOP YESS FINALLY AFTER ALL THIS SUFFERING I DID IT. now i dont even have to study well at school anymore! i can just NOT CARE!! I ALREADY ACHIEVED MY GOAL! THIS IS BASICALLY ME FINISHING SCHOOL!! YESSSS *sob*




yk i give up on arguing. i always thought that OH you learn rhetoric and persuation tricks and youll be able to change ppl's minds! nope. from what ive seen, if someone TRULY BELIEVES IN SOMETHING (not just casual "believe" no TRULY, DEEPLY believe in) it is literally IMPOSSIBLE for them to change their mind. to me this always keeps happening when discussing israel-palestine, history, politics, religion and even simple things like english teacher INSISTING that she has the correct answer and COMPLETELY ignoring and REFUSING to atleast COMPREHEND my counter arguments. i give up, from now on, ill just agree with someone, and move on. if the other person REALLY DOES CARE about discussing this contructively, then ill become open minded




ok i think im noticing that ppl are kinda acting weird towards me. like its not.. oh he's so weird no they're overly formal. i think i get why, like classmates for example, we're classmates, but we dont really... socalise or know each other, its a weird limbo and you dont know how to act. BUT STILL!!! WE'RE THE SAME AGE, why the formality ;w; and they act casually around everyone else even schoolmates, BUT ME, formality. like im... im.. the teacher or something BUT THEY EVEN ACT CASUAL AROUND THE TEACHER TOO WHY do i have to be.. "formalised"??

but also it only happens in school. like everywhere else its normal peer to peer transaction BUT IN SCHOOl?? like i dont know am i like a minister or somethin




origin of my user name-- its my REAL SURNAME, translated into russian, but then when signing up for duolingo of all things it shortened it down to just "vysot" and i was like, damn that sounds.. cool. and then it stuck... oh and there's also wigujm which sounds pronounce...-able if yk what i mean and i got that from a captcha




THIS is the russo georgian border in kazbegi. and im shook like, how did we ever get invaded?? how do you tell an invading army to go thru THIS???




summer has arrived! and everyone's like oh its so hot in middle east oh its so hot here oh so hooooooot... meanwhile in my lil country, in my lil city, its raining like crazy, i think yesterday rained... the day before yesterday too... ok then it didnt rain but BEFORE BEFORE BEFORE that it rained really hard too and today its forecasted that it will rain AGAIN, or atleast be really cloudy. and its really friggin chilly too like i was literally shaking after i woke up when i was wearing short sleeves shirt and feeling really cold even tho its sunny outside. everyone is angry like BOOOOO RAINNN while im happy cause I HATE HEAT. and bugs are scarce too for some reason i dont know wtf is going on, everywhere else in my country is like, super hot BUT IN THIS ONE SPECIFIC TOWN, its like, still cold??

and my chemistry teacher of all people told us that if it was really COLD winter, then itll be a really HOT summer. but this year's winter was really cold, really snowy and icey, EVEN TBILISI HAD SNOW, and they infamously are the dirtiest hottest polluted capital here. so if that saying is true this summer shouldve been the hottest one right? but nope! i guess the snow melted and now its raining a lot and that makes it a lil chilly but after the rain is gone... oh boy




YESSS. my local youth council has "ai camps" n shit. NOW I FINALLY HAVE JUSTIFICATION NOT GO. teachers, parents, and even friends telling me to go there cause they think i fit in, NOW i can finally pull out this argument and go "those peaches support ai, that goes against my values"! MWAHAHAH now i can laze around in my house and do nothin while havin a good excuse

and if youre wondering "ai is a good topic to discuss!' yea. I AGREE!! I LOVE AI SAFETY AND DISCUSSING ABOUT AI! but they dont do that kinda stuff! i read what they're actually doing in their facebook announcement and lemme just pull out a snippet i translated: "making an application with ai without knowing how to program (no code)"... ok first of all WE GET IT, YOU DONT HAVE TO RESPECIFY "no code" at the end. and second of all FUCK. OFF. go fuck yourself. fuck vibe coding. they aint discussing the dangers of ai, the impact it might have, or just having a healthy discussion no theyre tellin ya to just use it blindly, FREE THOUGHT?? SKEPTISISIM?? QUESTIONS?? nope! full on zombie mode here, friggin cult, OH OUR MESSIAH... CHADGPT. like WHATRE YOU LEARNING FROM THAT CAMP??? how to type a prompt? "durrrr chatgpt write me a python program that prints "ai is good", no mistakes"... i.. can already do that?? HELLO???? braindeath!!! AND THIRD OF ALL. if you want to make a game/app WITHOUT coding just use fucking construct 3 or friggin gdevelop or literally any other no code engine-- youll have more control and actually learn sh*t




monthly linux rice! this time i took inspiration from my OWN WEBSITE (yes the one ur on rn). and i decided to rice my text editor too (sublime text). check out the window decorations too, for closing the window instead of using x i made it a +!! REVOLUTIONARY!!

my best one so far in my opinion




i think im forgetting my mother tongue... cause i make WAYY TO MUCH GRAMMATICAL MISTAKES and ppl are noticing now. like i said "qartuli mochadrake" instead of "qartVELI mochadrake"... big mistake. qartuli and qartveli both mean "georgian" but qartuli is used for souless objects, like a georgian product and stuff. while qartveli means the ethnicity, and is what i shouldve used instead. yea this syntax reminds me of english i think its gotten to a point where i just use english as a base and use georgian words then. which is... not good

its cause i start to think in english and im overall more exposed to english than anything else. like i think outloud, talk to myself outloud sometimes too and i dont want others to realise what im talking to myself bout or thinking sooo i naturally unconsiously started thinking in english... and now im neglecting other languages more... im pretty sure if i go to an anglophone country counter intuitively i would re-remember my native tongue and forgot english lol




usually alcohol tastes pretty bad for me BUT T'DAY, it felt different. it was a family gathering and when i tasted it just for fun it was... kinda decent, not good, not bad id say neutral. and it felt very warm and then i felt how it washed inside my stomach. huh, that was weird. and after that i became a slight bit chatty and then moved on..

now some mfs might say *GAAAAASp* UNDERAGE DRINKINGGGG-- dude, its EASTERN EUROPE. post soviet nation, underage drinking is the tradition here-- and i only drank 1/3 of a cup that aint much right?? and my mom is a neurologist, which means SHE STUDIED BRAINS FOR 15 YEARS. and she says a lil once in a while is ok sooooooo




holy show (i cant say holy yk what because my overly religious friend spites me for it) i accidentally wrote the previous hyperrant ON THE INDEX/HOME PAGE, damn if anyone passed by and saw that... uh.. i dont even think it looked too off place tbh lol ;w;




i got back to this game called "alter ego" like its a game written by a psychologist i think, where you relive your life. its text based but really fucking fun, thoughtful and sad at the same time. i tried finding lets plays or other people's reactions to it and its really niche for some reason. WHY?? ITS SUCH A GREAT GAME!! A HIDDEN GEM!!!

in general now that i think about it im always into the more niche games. all i ever had is my 5 year old laptop with 3 gb of ram, and like 200000 year old discontinued intel cpu, so i cant play the more demanding stuff (and by demanding i mean i cant even emulate 3ds games) sooo i always steered towards the retro 2d ones. SO now ill list some of my fav games for... no reason: earthbound, mother 3, pokemon white, pokemon sapphire, ace attorney phoenix wright trilogy, ace attourney apollo justice, punch out for nes and snes etc. and of course my childhood flash games lethal rpg, rogue soul, fireboy and water girl and like bajillion others whose names i forgot... like that 2 player kitty archer game or somethin ;w;




goin to school were your siblings also studied is really stressful for everyone involved. LIKE my sister, WAS A BEAST. bro finished school with straight 10/10s, was active in all school stuff, finished on a gold medal and a free laptop as a gift. and so a lotta expectations were also laid on and i think i did not dissapoint!... or i guess i did since sure i also got straight 10/10s (as an yearly average atleast) but im not as active in school stuff or social stuff like she was... just a shy gloomy nerd. and now it was time for my lil sister who... did dissapoint... but she was active in social stuff more like she paints, sings and is very socially active... but in the education/study aspect?... oof...

btw now teachers start fuckin, comparing us to each other. like i was compared to my sister a lot damnn hes just as smart as she issss-- and one time math teacher literally was like: oh boy you got an 8/10 on the math test... but since your sister is so good ill give you a 10/10... WHATTTT NOW THIS IS JUST NEPOTISM NO!!! THANKFULLY SHE SAID THIS PERSONALLY TO ME OTHERWISE ID BE DEAD IF SHE SAID THAT IN FRONT OF THE CLASS. and my lil sis has the toughest, if she doesnt study she's compared to US BOTH. like art history (yes thats a subject we are forced to study btw for some reason) just told her "isnt there anything you picked up from (my name) and (my big sister name)"??... damn. cold. and this is bad! u should NOT compare people to each other this just incentivises hate competition and envy




HOLY SHIT THE VIDEO CAME OUT-- GMTK 2026!! AAAAAAAAA and IM COMPLETELY UNPREPARED. my main game engine is construct 2... which is unavaibale for linux... whatever just use wine right? WRONG. it works PERFECTLY-- except, PREVIEWS. which is like... the main most useful thing in game development??? whatever use a vm right?... ok but then its slow, mouse feels clunky and overall... meh. just switch to windows?... ok i do dual boot but last time i switched to windows it was MISERABLE, night light BARELY WORKED, it was bloated, slow and kinda... uncustomisable?? is that how u say it?? (thats what linux does to a man... ;w;). whatever then use a different game engine right??... YEA BUT I HAVE LIKE 2 MONTHS TO LEARN IT-- and WHAT GAME ENGINE?? ONLY GODOT AND SOME OTHERS ARE AVAILABLE FOR LINUX AAAAAAAA-- okkkkkkkkk i found usagi, which is a lua framework but... my paranoid ass doesnt want to touch it since its kinda new and could be malware (even tho virus total and others all say its safe... still no im THAT paranoid) what bout love2d then...? ok... its more documented and stuff but fineeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee... only coding game engine btw *flex*.. once.. i actually learn it that is

update HEQQ love2d SUCKS... like i miss the level editor! and i did try tiled, ldtk but virus total said they're... kinda sus and trojan and they do seem to be wanting internet connection for... some reason so i aint touchin those, i know they're reputable and well known but still. then i tried ogmo exported some levels and found some ogmo love2d level reader on github by gabe and tried to implement it and... it... didnt work, the level tiles were... weirdly seperated, some tiles were missing and it didnt even take up the whole screen like i told it to! i give up-- ;w; ill still use it for, goofy super niche side projects but rn? meh. now ill move onto gdevelop if that fails then godot if that also fails ill make my own game engine OR break my laptop in half

i give up gdevelop sucks too. its so sad i remember it being really good couple of years ago but now they completely ruined it! there's ai slop everywhere, premium and other shit. and theres this weird distinguishment between global and local sprites. ALL sprites are by default "scene" specific, so you can only use them in one spot. each scene/level has its OWN CODE??? WHY??? why did they make it so unintiuitive! and the ui is overall very restrictive and i was unable to do anything even tho i heard it has so many features! sure i can get used to it, maybe read the docs but the thing that put me away was the big fatass loading screen featuring "made with gdevelop" and the watermark there is under the game taking like 1/6 of the screen with blur saying "made with gdevelop" with no way to turn it off. WHY?? loading screen is ENOUGH, ppl already know that this game was madeby gdevelop WHY ARE YOU SHOVING A BIG FAT WATERMARK UNDEARNEATH THE GAME FOR NO FUCKING REASON? i though this was a free and open source game engine BUT NOPE

mk now im moving to godot which i have used before and... did not enjoy using it, at all, like i tried following a tutorial and the video was nothing like the engine but hey maybe it'll be different this time??? ;w;

okkk godot is kinda... demotivating?? like docs n tutorials and stuff i dont know why the first impression haunts me still.. BUT YK? i DID watch some gdevelop videos from their official youtube channel and yea now it makes sense! so u CAN disable those stuff and external scenes are events are still kinda unusual but i can get used to them... i-ignore what i said... like... couple of messages ago... about gdevelop... uhhhhhh




soviet era washing machine :D




...i gained 2 kilos ;w; now im 62 kg

BUT BUT-- when i look at my anatomy... its kinda the same, and i dont even know why i gained weight i havent been eating stuff at all

BUT THEN I WAS LIKE... wait, maybe its the height??? and i measured and... oh, i gained 2 cms, now im 1.77 meters... PHEWWWW i thought i was gonna have to cut back on the ice cream but... wait does each cm gain = +1 kg??? wow that's so neat... and if that's actually the case IM GONNA SHIFT THIS THOUGHT INTO: why metric system is better than imperial. AS YOU CAN SEE, its consistent and logical IN LITERALLY EVERYTHING, even in this niche situation

METRIC IS 10000 TIMES BETTER THAN IMPERIAL, better conversion between units WHILE BEING BEAUTIFUL. for example water boils at 100 celsius, while it freezes at 0. compared to fahrenheit's water boiling at 212 and it freezing at 32... SUCH RANDOM NUMBERS EW-- and conversion between length too: 1 km = 1000m.. BEAUTIFUL. and btw "kilo" is greek for "thousand" SO YOURE LITERALLY SAYING a thousand meters, SO EASY TO REMEMBER!! compared to 1 mile = 1760 yards... LIKE WHAT IS THE LOGIC HERE???? HOW DO PEOPLE USE THIS???




...welp i think i have speech cluttering now, like a speech disorder. LIKE LITERALLY NO ONE CAN UNDERSTAND ME NOW. like not even the teachers, friends or family members, and in all languages too

i read some wikipedia and cluttering -- "characterized by a rapid rate of speech, erratic rhythm, and poor syntax or grammar" THAT. FITS. ME. PERFECTLY. i think i got it ever since i watched evan edinger's "watching videos at 2x speed changed my brain" or somethin. and i also tried it and... i cannot watch videos without it being sped up anymore. but aside from that i guess i picked up on rapid incomprehensible speech and now i mispronounce and mash words together trying to say them quickly

AND GRAMMAR TOO! MY DAD. MY FRIEND. MY EVERYONE keeps telling me why do you speak so weirdly?? when i meet new peers they all think im a foreigner. because my grammar (and as i said pronounciation too) just sound wayy too off. and its not just in georgian english and russian too!! like when i whisper or write in any of those languages, its perfectly fine WHEN I SPEAK THEM-- oh god.

but i wasnt speaking like this before!! and as i said i suspect tbe cause mightve been watching videos at 2x speed and so now im dialing it back to 1.3x speed which is a lil unbearable and im a lil impatient but i think itll help?? or maybe not maybe i actually need to see a doctor ;w;




tday i lookd out of the window and saw an old man absolutely chugging a bottle of beer and then throwing it into the trash... huh... SEE??? SEE????? EVEN DRUNKARDS DONT LITTER. THEN WHAT'S WRONG WITH U?? dont litter guys




...i remember that one time when a kid in my local chess club called me an "unc"... dude... IM LITERALLY A TEEN-- whatever... kids these days...

RANT TIME. i grew up in a country that basically lags behind by like 5-10 years... so the old stuff for the west is new for us. LIKE FLASH GAMES AND EARLY YT. they were my childhood-- but now my country... kinda caught up (tho the government is actively reversing that...) so now its basically like-- yk?? age gap isnt big but LIKE THE SOUL GAP IS...




FRESH NEW WEBSITE DESIGN!! YIPEEEEE

I WORKED SO HARD ON THIS TwT

inspired by this btw :3




AUGHHHHHH I FAILED CHEMISTRYY-- jk had exam anddddd... DUDE. THE TEACHER PREPARED US FOR THE EXAM COUPLE OF DAYS EARLIER. AND IT WAS NOTHIN LIKE SHE SAID IT WOULD BE. LIKE I REMEMBER EXACTLY WHAT SHE COVERED: bensulide, its general formula, its decendents and how to read its name in different expanded formulas, organic compounds reacting with bromium and chlorine, polymers, hydration, alkines and alkynes and alkenes... NONE OF THEM. yes NONE. OF. THEM. were in the exam. BUT SHE SAID THEY WOULD BE??? WHAT THE FUCK--

AND. AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF, SHE TOOK QUESTIONS FROM CHAPTER 1 TOO!! the book is devided in 2 chapters: non organic and organic compounds. we ALREADY. DID. AN. EXAM. ON. NON ORGANIC. COMPOUNDS. IN PAST SEMESTER. and so everyone was like: oh now we'll do the test on organic ones BUT NO. PROBLEMS FROM ALL CHAPTERS WERE PRESENT IN THE EXAM. why???? WHY???? YOU SAID IT WAS GONNA BE A CHAPTER 2 EXAM--

pretty much everyone is saying they'll be gettin a 5/10 WHICH IS BARELY PASSING. as for me i still somehow wrote EVERY SINGLE ONE.. except for 4th question since... yea it was bs. and how did i manage to do that? CHEATING!! and the teacher ADORES ME im the best student in her class soooo she kinda went easy on me and gave me some answers for some questions ;w; ill probably get 8/10 or 9/10 OR IN WORST CASE SCENARIO 7/10... 'OPE N PRAY 'OPE N PRAYYYYYYY

oh right i forgor to update on this... i got a 9/10, which was to be expected tbh.. good grade, my semester and yearly average is 10/10 which is mwah, that's all i need. and the teacher was announcing grades to whole class AND ONE KID, ONLY ONE. got a 10/10. how? HE USED CHATGPTTTTT he CHEATED HIS ARSE OFF BOOO!1!! (actually unintentional 1 btw)




oh god, i just learned that apparently, if you have a bullet inside your body, you might get in trouble while travelling...

OK WHAT IF, you accidentally shoot yourself (dont ask how) and it goes too deep and doctors just decide to leave it there... YOU DID NOTHING WRONG, and yet now u cant travel ;w;...

bullets are so awkward THIS IS WHY, im looking forward to LASER GUNS. less mess more... uh... wounds?? i dunno this is already a weird thought --




ive been cringeing at the stuff ive done as a kid. but then i justify it by "wellll i was 6 at the time, i was a kid no one cares"...but now i think when i grow up, ill look back at my teenage self and go "welll... i was a friggin teenager at the time, all teens make mistakes.." AND THEN ILL BECOME A SENIOR AND GO "...ehh i was a young man at the time i didnt know any better"...




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O.M.G.. YESS. I DELETED THOSE ANNOYING A** BLOATWARE ON MY PHONEEEE. and it was so cool too!

I HATE YOUTUBE MUSIC. GET THIS SH*T AWAY FROM MY SCREENN-- but NO you cant DISABLE IT OR UNISTALL IT... why????? its MY phone!!! anyway I DLETED ALL THOSE SUCKERS and it was easy too:

FREEDOOMm and i felt like a cool hacker while doin that too




ok i went to the capital and... holy moly i looked like a fucking borat or something i had no idea what was happening. everything was SO TALL AND SO DECORATED... in my lil town, its only tiny houses (3 floors tops) streets are mostly empty, no cars, no people, the roads are half built-- BUT OVER THERE oh BOY THERE IS NO PERSONAL SPACE

and i rode my first train! i... got stuck while trying to enter it. then my sister was like you have to be AGGRESSIVE, you have to push people away, stop being so soft!... WHAT?? that's city life?? i dont like city life!! nooooooooo




another monthly linux rice. this time i designed the gtk theme and window decorations ON MY OWN (in figma!!) (this is cinnamon btw)

BTW HERE'S HOW: u go to .themes, go to the theme youre using, then edit the gtk3.css file. how?? take screenshots of the stuff you want to edit, then colour pick the colour you want to edit, in the gtk3.css file press ctrl+f to find the colour you colourpicked (like #f0f0f0 for example) change it and bam!...

and for window decos the assets are in .themes/nameofurtheme/gtk3/assets and design 4 versions of close, minimise and maximise: (one standalone, one with mouse hover on it, one clicking on it, and other where the window is unfocused). replace the existing ones, log out and log back in and done!...

this more advanced customisation wasnt explained on the internet for some reason i kinda want to make a more in depth tutorial but... like... my desktop is already customised-- sooo what do i show?? ill do it but laterrrr




friend: *listening to someone struggling to speak on a phone*

me: ...dude, its not nice to make fun of disabled people

friend: oh its actually making fun of french people

me: .....its not nice to make fun of disabled people




id be impressed if anyone got what this thing is... OK I HATE NOT KNOWING EITHER so hover over yuor mouse to see what it is..




I SHOT MYSELF IN THE FOOT. really. IT WAS A BAIKAL IZH-38 SOVIET ERA AIR GUN, from the 70s (vintage).

I was playing around, shoting stuff with it and i noticed that this gun cant even pierce thru a football ball... so what happens if i shoot... myself?? will anything happen?? so i first shot my slippers, and when i saw that it didnt pierce, i was like: oh so it really is that weak,... it cant even break thru A SLIPPER. SO THEN I LOCKED IN, and ACTUALLY SHOT MY OWN FOOT. at first i was like OWIE OWIE OWIE OWIE OWIE-- it was EXACTLY like stabbing a toe... but then the pain... went away? and i went home

i got there and my sis was there in the kitchen and was like yo i think i shot myself. and she was like REALLY?? where?? and i was like: in my foot but its a weak gun so it probably didnt do anything. and she kinda didnt believe me i think. and so i showed her my foot and... oh no. ITS BLEEDING, A HOLE!! AAAAAAAAAA but it STILL doesnt hurt??? AWE PANICKED. AND OUR PARENTS, WERE IN THE CAPITAL, AND MY MOM IS A DOCTOR SO WE WERE LIKE: OK SHE'LL COME, SHE'LL CURE US, AND BOOM DONE IT DOESNT HURT EITHER SOOO. we called her and she's... already in our town?/ GREATTT and after like 5 minutes, she arrived (that was fast, thank god i shot myself LATER in the day...ok i just realised that sounded sus MOVING ON.). and she tied my foot with some bandage. and went to the hospital (NOOOO THIS WAS SUPPOSED TO BE PRIVATE--)

anyway we arrived and they took a rendgen...? no... XRAY! YEA-- and THERE WAS A WHITE DOT STUCK IN MY FOOT. WHAT?? THIS GUN CANT PIERECE THRU A FRIGGIN SLIPPER BUT THIS-- ...HOW???? and then we called a SURGEON or.. whoever it is and he started just pinching my wound and like doing weird things with it. and i suddenly felt SICK my head spinned, i went completely pale, i almost barfed but then dad and doc scooped me up, put me in a patient bed and the doc lifted my legs and suddenly i felt perfect?? WHAT WAS THAT MAGIC-- after everything settled he said the most disturbing thing ever: "yup, its too deep, i recommend standard anti biotics and letting the bullet stay there."....... WHATTTTTTT??? NOOOOOOOO AND OF COURSE WE ALL LASHED OUT-- A FOREIGN OBJECT??? INSIDE ME?? PERMANANTELY?? NO!!-- and so he was like ok then take him to the capital, they have better tools to remove this. and so we went...

we arrived.. to a children's hospital cause im still technically a teen. we got interviewed before the doctors show up and she was like ok so "ok whats the problem" and i said: i got shot and then she went crazy and mom told her it was in my foot and she looked at it and demanded the story and FUCK. i cant just tell her "i shot myself cause i got curious" so i stumbled.... andd i havent told my parents too yet about... how i got it. so everyone was looking at me but then dad, absolute giga chad came out i think it happened while reloading, so the way the gun reloads is you literally break it in half, put the bullet then flop it. and he might have done it while looking down and when it happened he accidentally pulled the trigger. and everyone believed it!! and even now i use that argument to everyone EVEN MY PARENTS DONT KNOW THE TRUE STORY (only my sister ;w;) since DUH I CANT TELL THEM I SHOTMYSELF ON PURPOSE--

anyyyway then two doctors came and one of them was like: you got shot??? oh haha i also got shot once by my friend in the back. and they couldnt take out the bullet so i still have it. lets see how deep it is and then we'll take it out. (GULPPPPPPPP) and so we took ANOTHER XRAY. after it they were like: ok MAYBE we can take it out, WITH SURGERY (dun dun dunnnnnnnn) and so i hadd to wait... for 6 hours since i cant do anesethesia if have eaten or drak stuff. and by this point it was 2 friggin am and all this time i was just passing the time with clash royale

BUT THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN: the police showed up. some fuckers snitched on me i think what the fuck. IT WAS AN ACCIDENT, I WAS ALL ALONE, IT WAS IN THE FOOT FOR CHRIST'S SAKE. and then they questioned me... in the hospital. and i used my dad's flawless theory lol and then they left. and then i had to put on some weird clothes, that looked like a white dress for some reason (FOR GODS SAKE ITS A FOOT NOT A LIVER, OR A HEART, OR LUNGS-- WHY DO I NEED THIS--) and went to sleep on the surgeon's table

and then i THINK I HAD A DREAM, like where doctors were discussing "hmmm this bullet is too deep, we cant take it out" and then i woke up. at 9 am. saw my mom and started an interogation. DID THEY TAKE IT OUT?? she was like: yes. i was like BUT I HEARD THEY SAID NO?? it was too deep. and she was like, no it was a successfull 30 minute operation, and then i wanted evidence, WHERES THE BULLET. and she was like oh the police took it. FUCKING POLICEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE THEY TOOK MY BABY-- anyway then the rest was blur. just.... waiting... in bed... occasional bathroom visits where i just hop on my leg...

and now im here.... btw this made for an awesome april fools joke like: yo bro i shotmyself in the foot. OH BRO ITS APRIL FOOLS HAHA GOOD ONE.... .............................................................i am serious--. btw the police stuff is over, and while i was in the hospital they fucking barged into my house, confiscated whatever the fuck they wanted and started questioning my grandparents and sister. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK?? u cant do that without permissiom right??? BUT WHO CARES ABOUT LAWS OR CONSENT??? that's post soviet states for ya. ANYWAYYYYYY NOW IM FINE. like a month passed and... i recovered! i can now exercise again, it still hurts if i bend it TOO MUCH but its overall good :)

btw if YOU want to shoot yourself in the foot... DONT. SERIOUSLY DO. NOT. DO. IT. ITS NOT WORTH IT. AND THERE'S A CHANCE THAT BULLET WILL BE STUCK INSIDE OF YOU FOREVER WHICH WILL IN TURN CAUSE SERIOUS DIFFICULTIES DOWN THE LINE




linux: yo ur using unused dependencies wanna remove em?

me: sure!

linux: *removes libfuse2t64*

*next day*:

me: ...wait why isnt my browser starting??... or libresprite...? uh... WHY ARNT APPIMAGES WORKING ANYMORE??

i shall never trust apt autoremove ever again




OK MY HISTORY WITH AI IS... i got my hands on it quicker than anyone else (since i live in a post soviet country it takes a while for new innovation to come up here) so i used it in school... IN LITERALLY EVERYTHING. everyone's essays where like... low level. MINE WAS FRIGGIN, big fancy jargon words every 10 seconds. and i became completely reliant on it like, my main source of information.

BUT THEN, ai... wasnt a niche or cool lil thing anymore, it became super controversial. and my country was starting to pick it up too!! so i wasnt unique anymore and i saw the anti arguments for it (climate change, piracy, end of humanity, ensloppification) and... yea i became more cautious of it. but still used it since... its just that good!

but then my classmates started using it too and... holy smokes it just hallucinated sh*t! like svetickhoveli being built by davit aghmashenebeli, sulkhan saba orbeliani travelling to russia?? "warm air" for geography exam?? wtf is that?? some made up hallucinated artist for art homework?? barely capable of speaking our language?? etc. like THEY WERENT EVEN BOTHERING TO DOUBLE CHECKING WHAT IT SAID!!.

at first i was like: haha dumbasses, like double check info at the very least but then i also reaslied--... wait... i do that too... I ALSO TAKE WHATEVER AI SAYS AT FACE VALUE-- and so i decided NO MORE AI FOR INFORMATION. its all just hallucinations anyway. so i looked to other sources of information.. SEARCH ENGINES! WIKIPEDIA! YOUTUBE! they're more accurate, consistent and good. i became IN LOVE with wikipedia.

at that point i only used ai for... its funnies. i provided the situation or somethin, and it made funny jokes! that was great! but then gpt-5 rolled around and... yea it... was complete shit. the jokes WERENT FUNNY ANYMORE, instead replaced with seriousness and caution. and then it just started arguing on literally everything i said?? like yo mkhedruli script the most phonetic script ever, it went: nonono WRONG. and it would just its hangeul and mkhdruli is VERY NOT PHONETIC (moves on to list bullshit hallucinations)... and it would just completely lose it mind when talking about ai OHOH ITS SO GOOD MMMMM I LOVE AI MMM SLOP I LIKE-- like shuddup ;w;

and so i was like: ...wait.. i have no reason to use ai now... the funnies are.. gone... information is complete bs... and its more frustrating to talk to it now since its 99% rage bait anyway... so why should i keep using it?? and so i messaged it like: "yo dude i think im just gonna... delete my account." and it was like: oh really? ok. LIKE DIDNT EVEN FEEL BAD. it was like: great! gtfo. yea ppl who think ai is their "friend" say "im deleting my account" and it instantly defaults to: OH MY LOVE... goodbye. *smoke* hope we never meet again.

and so i pulled the trigger... and now im here! i think i did it when trump was inagurated soo... yea its been solid 2 years with no ai! and THANK GOD since now that im using more reliable sources to double check stuff...

i have also realised that THE "INFORMATION" AI PROVIDED TO ME, WERE COMPLETE BULLSHIT. like the stuff it told me and i thought was correct, WERE COMPLETELY WRONG ALL ALONG. like "put your shirt over your nose and mouth so second hand smoke/vape doesnt get in" ...uh, the particles are small... and shirt has holes in it... so it still gets in at the end? this doesnt help at all! or "drg was exposed to soviet forces because it didnt defend the south"... MOST ENGAGEMENTS, happened in south! and georgia was absolutely prepared, even winning at tbilisi. THE TRUE REASON (this is why i love wikipedia) failed at the end was because the largest armed force, the national guard was controlled by the parliament (not the ministry of defense) so it made it very politicised and slow. while the regular army was... smol af.

or "theres no pattern in oxide reactions you just have to remember them"... ALSO BS. for example: N2O + H2O -> HNO. why do you get HNO? its actually very simple! here's the stepbystep version of it N2O + H2O -> H2N2O2. why is it H2N2O2? because as you can see, in the reaction there are 2 N atoms, 2 O atoms, and 2 H atoms. so you get H2N2O2. and since all indexes are devisible by a number (2 in this case).. you do that. and get HNO. BOOM ITS THAT SIMPLE.

AND THERE ARE EVEN MORE EXAMPLES OF THIS. i SWEAR ai is NOT SMART. it doesnt understand THE BASICS OF ANYTHING. its straight up disinformation!!! and i think i know why! its trained to generalise its training data. so that's why its broad and generic, almost never going to detail unless you explicitly tell it to. and I ABSOLUTELY DESPISE. HAVING TO GOOGLE A PROBLEM. AND GETTING AN AI GENERATED ARTICLE -- OH. MY. GOD. like recently i tried doing this on how to make inspect element permanent and it was just ai articles all over the place, not even telling me the HOW but the WHY which is compeltely dirranged. so yea in conclusion, ai is stupid, it always will be, it almost ruined my life, and thank god my brain woke up and stopped this addiction




btw i am realising, working on this is INCREDIBLEY FUN, probably because the changes are now INSTANT, u change even a LIL BIT OF CODE, and BAM the website is different. so the progress is very visable at all times which is why all of this is so motivating